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Taking a Prayer Ministry to the Nations

July 19, 2017

Our newest missionary, Devon, wrote a beautiful letter detailing the way in which she received her calling in and through Resurrection ministries, including the 24/7 prayer initiatives, the Transformation Intensive, and Holy Week. It is a powerful, encouraging testimony to the way that the Lord is answering the core prayer of our Moved by Jesus campaign, that the Lord would "send forth laborers into the harvest."

Dear Resurrection family,

When I found out that the Global Mission Team decided to officially send me out as a Resurrection missionary, and I felt so honored, joyful, and grateful for their affirmation of my call to serve the Lord in the Middle East. While reflecting on all the ways that God shaped and directed my life these last few years, it is clear that Resurrection played an integral role in the discernment and confirmation of my next season of ministry.  I want to testify to all the ways that Resurrection has equipped and apprenticed me for “such a time as this,” and to thank this church for the way that you have supported me in the past and continue to support me as I move ahead.

I started going to Resurrection fifteen years ago as a high school student, but was not truly involved until I joined Choir and the Communications Team after college. When the Internship program was launched several years ago, I was thrilled to receive training and discipleship from Fr. Trevor, my cohort leader, and from the pastoral staff at Resurrection. I grew so much over those two internship years, becoming involved in several different teams—including the then Nations Team—and stretching myself to grow in devotion to the Lord, in leadership, and in service.

The most impactful experiences that overlapped my internship were the prayer intensives. While in college in Chicago, I had become involved with a 24/7 prayer ministry, and was deeply impacted by the call to worship and pray with a community around the clock. When I heard that Resurrection wanted to champion the call to pray continuously in the form of these prayer intensives, my heart could barely contain itself! My beloved home church was embracing a ministry that was near and dear to me. I look back to Prayer40 and Prayer100 as times of accelerated spiritual growth, where the Lord saw the fasting of our time and our weaknesses, and he moved in strength and power! Especially during Prayer40, as I meditated on Matthew 9:36-38 and prayed that “the Lord of the harvest would send forth laborers,” and as I helped with the communication of the “Moved by Jesus” campaign, I began to see the profound connection between my call to pray and my call to labor in the harvest fields.  There were many NightWatch prayer slots where I would go and just pray over the map in All Saints Chapel, with a sense that the Lord was calling me to go, but the questions of where and when remained.

Sandwiched between the two Prayer Intensives, I took the Transformation Intensive with Deacon Val. Because the Transformation Intensive is particularly helpful for those discerning a call, my intention was to use this time to seek the Lord about if, when, and where he would like me to serve as a missionary. Going through the Ignatian exercises and attending weekly spiritual direction helped ground me further in my dependence on the Lord and in hearing his voice.Though I did not get the “final word” during this time, I firmly believe that it was here God laid the groundwork for his call to the nations.

Soon after I completed the Transformation Intensive in spring of 2016, a good friend called and asked if I could join her on a short mission trip to Jordan. I was pretty indifferent to Jordan at the time, but I agreed to go. Nothing could have prepared me for my first foray into the Arab world. After several days of observing and absorbing, I arrived at a startling conclusion: I loved this place, and I loved these people. It seemed so sudden, so different from the ministry that I was currently in, so divergent from any work that I had done in the past, that I felt it must be the Holy Spirit loving these people through me. Every day during the two weeks that I spent in Jordan, I was overwhelmed by how the Lord was moving and drawing me into his Middle Eastern story. By the time I was on a plane back to O’Hare, I knew that I needed to seriously pursue specific answers—did I need to focus my prayers to intercede for this region, or did I need to go and live and work there?

For about a month I fasted and prayed, asking God to show me in a very clear way what he wanted me to do. Around the end of this month was Holy Week 2016. I walked through that week somewhat distractedly, not being able to fully enter in because of the questions that loomed so prominently in my mind and spirit. It wasn’t until the start of the Vigil where I had breakthrough. Bp. Stewart led the first ministry time, and had a word of knowledge that the Lord was commissioning new works in our congregation. As he called out these new ministries, Bp. Stewart mainly focused on local, compassion ministries such as working among the homeless or marginalized. I prayed that if God was commissioning me to a new ministry overseas, that Bp. Stewart would specifically address those who felt a new call to the Middle East to come up for prayer. Within a few seconds, Bp. Stewart called all those with a burden to minister to Jerusalem and the Middle East to come to the front for prayer. Stunned that my request had been so immediately and exactly answered, I walked to the front.

As I kneeled for prayer, I questioned over and over in my heart, “Lord, do you want me to go? You want me to actually pack my bags and move?” Soon, Margie Fawcett placed her hand on my shoulder and started praying for me. As if in direct dialogue with my internal prayer, she said out loud, “Go! I will make you a fisher of men. Take only your cloak and your staff. You are coming back with stories.” Fr. Kevin, a few weeks later, further confirmed this word during Eucharist by telling me, “The Lord is taking your prayer ministry to the nations!” In his kindness, God had given me a direct, irrefutable, answer to so many of the questions that I had been asking. No longer was I questioning if I was supposed to be a global worker or where I was supposed to serve, but when do I need to leave and how will I get there?

These questions didn’t remain unanswered for long. Later that next week, I received an email announcement from one of my favorite missions organizations: Frontier Alliance International. They were starting a training for ministering in the Middle East—an “Emmaus Walk”— and were currently accepting applications for their Spring 2017 school. I presented this training opportunity to the Global Missions Team as a first step to answering the clear call that the Lord had communicated through the ministry of Resurrection.


Without reservation, I can say that this Emmaus Walk was absolutely what I needed to succeed in this next season. After three and a half months on the field, I returned to Wheaton and Resurrection ready to go back long-term to the Middle East, and more confident than ever that this is where the Lord has been leading me these last several years.

In August, I will return to Jordan to begin working with a Frontier Alliance International team. This team will be providing accountability and encouragement toward growing in intimacy with the Lord through worship, prayer, Bible study, etc., toward diligent acquisition of Arabic, and toward regular and intentional gospel engagement with those around us, including Syrian, Iraqi, and Yemini refugees. We believe this intentional gospel community that ministers to the Lord with regular prayer and worship will provide a rich context for the Holy Spirit to equip and send small teams out from our midst into other ripe fields in the region by the grace and for the glory of God.

Thank you, Resurrection, for walking with me on this pilgrimage. I am forever grateful for the way that you have heard the word of the Lord on my behalf, how you have called me to grow and not let me stay stagnant spiritually, and how you have supported me in the various stages of this journey. I am deeply humbled to be sent out by this church, and with God’s help, I hope to honor the trust that you have put in me.
 In
Your thankful daughter in Christ,

Devon

To read an article Devon wrote for Frontier Alliance International, click here!
Devon P.
Global Partner
devonphil@gmail.com
Tagged: missions, prayer, calling

A Couple's Transformation Testimony

June 12, 2017

Paul and Judy Sather took part in the Transformation Intensive this past year, and shared their testimonies in the final group gathering this spring. I asked them to write their stories out so that everyone could hear both a male and female perspective on the Ignatian exercises.

Judy writes:

Having just gone through the Transformation Intensive, I can honestly say that it was just that.  Transforming.  And intense.  I am beyond grateful that our church offers this opportunity!
Having grown up in the church, I’ve been involved in and even led many groups… youth groups, couple’s groups, women’s groups, just to name a few.  But this group, this was different.  My husband and I took this class at the same time, and in looking back, we have both found this to be the most impactful and growth-producing group that we’ve ever been in.  And like other life-changing events (marriage, raising a child, etc.), it’s difficult to describe.  It’s a unique experience for each person.  Nonetheless, let me share a few thoughts from my experience.  
 I came to the group with a hopeful heart.  I was looking for an infusion of energy and depth in my relationship with God.  Hungry for more.  But having been a “student” of spiritual formation through various personal spiritual disciplines and over 10 years of spiritual direction, I was also not sure if there was anything new to be offered.  And, as an introvert at heart, I was also wary about the small group portion of the experience.  
8 months later I can say that God used each element of the class to bring about transformation.
So how have I changed?  Most prominently I see changes in two major areas – my prayer life, and my relationship to Jesus, specifically in relation to his humanity.  
 Prayer, for me, has taken on a new boldness.  A new courage.  I found myself, early in the class, asking Jesus to let me accompany him very closely on his earthly journey.  I wanted to be right by his side the whole time.  To experience what he experienced. To experience, as closely as possible, what it was like for him. To let myself be changed, in whatever shape or form that may take.  What a wild ride I found that to be! 
One of our early large group prayer exercises involved an imaginative prayer exercise.  We were to close our eyes and see ourselves scuba diving deep into water and finding a treasure chest. We were asked to open the treasure box and look inside.  At this point in the exercise the high-expectation and self-critical part of my brain said “Oh great – now I’m supposed to find some amazing item. The pressure’s on.” I started giving up right then and there, deciding that maybe this whole imaginative prayer thing is NOT going to work for me.  But as soon as I gave up and let go of the experience, my imagination turned back to the opened treasure chest; this time there was something there. Two human hands, reaching out to me.  I knew who they belonged to. I gazed at them for a while, then reached out. I put my hands in those hands.  And as I did, the hands of Jesus gently pulled me right into the treasure chest, and all the way through it to other side. I came out the other side into the aqua blue water, and I was surrounded by light.  This was the beginning of a very personal experience accompanying Jesus through his journey on this earth. Joining him from birth, to his hidden growing-up years, to his ministry, to the passion and resurrection.  And those hands came to symbolize, for me, my deepening relationship to Jesus.
There were many memorable moments along the way. At Jesus’ birth, I imaginatively entered the scene and kneeled by Mary as she went through the pains of childbirth. I wiped her forehead as I was ministered to her by her incredibly deep faith through this difficult and exhilarating time.  It was as though I was even able to minister to her a bit, as I comforted her through the contractions.  
 Weeks later in the journey, I remember Jesus climbing a mountain to teach his disciples.  There again were his hands, reaching down to mine as he asked me to join him. To come close and hear this sermon from the mount.  “Learn from me,” he said. “This is for you.”
And later, at Gethsemane, I had to let go of those hands as he told me that he had to pray alone with his father God.  My part?  Watch and Pray.  It was a foreshadowing for me of what was to come, as I would have to release of those hands to his death.  Those hands that I had grown so accustomed to touching and holding were eventually lifeless.  At this point in our TI journey, our large group time included a “visio divina” prayer experience in which we meditated on, and placed ourselves into, the scene of a painting of the passion.  I instinctively found myself reaching down to touch those hands that had been reaching to the very depths of me, only to find them lifeless with blood on them.  My blood.  Our blood.
But then, the resurrection! There I was, with the disciples, in a darkened room.  Feeling their confusion about what was next.  It was all playing out so differently than ever imagined.  And then Jesus himself came right through the wall – and stood in front of me.  That look! Any doubts I had just melted away.  He showed me those hands and said I could touch them.  Suddenly I didn’t need that physical touch of our hands.  It had become SO much more.  We started laughing with joy and embraced. 
Those hands, all along the way, drew me in.  Into the humanity of Jesus.  Into the cross.  Into the divinity of our triune God.  It’s a centeredness and a unity that is grace upon grace upon grace.        

Paul writes:

 My experience with the Transformation Intensive also began with a mixture of skepticism and hope. I had also grown up in the church and had been in many Bible studies, couples groups, men’s groups, Promise Keepers, etc. having led a number of them. Having read the Bible through cover to cover numerous times I felt very familiar with Scripture and its teaching and application. And having gone to church for as long as I have, being in the somewhat older crowd, I felt that I had more than enough teaching on various passages, so that there wasn't much that would be new.  In short, I was cynical, self-sufficient, and proud. Yet in spite of those obstacles I maintained a sense of hope and expectation that God would somehow connect with me in a deep way. Well, as Ephesians states, he did immeasurably more than all I could ask or imagine according to his power that is at work within us. His power was clearly at work in us, individually and corporately. The group experiences were as essential as the individual hours of prayer.
I'm sure there is no way that I could have predicted how powerful the Transformation Intensive experience would be for me. I think it would be best described with a metaphor. At the end of the Intensive, we were asked to choose a particular object that symbolized our experience. I chose a particular egg.  Here is a picture:
 
 
As you can see it looks like an ordinary egg carved out of wood. This symbolized my expectations in a nutshell, (or in an eggshell).  I expected it to be nothing out of the ordinary, nothing uncommon, nothing that you wouldn't find in your own refrigerator, for instance. That was how I approached the experience.  
However, this particular egg is not what it seems; it is a kaleidoscope!  So, if you bring it close and look deeply into it, what you see is simply amazing.  It is essential that you point it toward the light, and when you do, you see an amazing design.  If you turn it, it changes into something equally as beautiful and unexpected. You never know what beautiful design is coming next. 
Another very important aspect of the kaleidoscope is that it is actually made up of brokenness. It is essentially broken pieces of glass combined with light and shaped with prisms to create something beautiful that is constantly unfolding.
That was my experience of the Transformation Intensive. it was not at all what it seemed on the surface, a journey through the exercises of St. Ignatius over a period of months.  In the hours of prayer and journaling that I spent in the presence of God, I found a clearer deeper sense of my own brokenness and even more clear and deep sense of God’s grace and mercy embodied in the choice of sending Jesus as a sacrifice for our sins, for my sin.
Using imaginative contemplation to walk through the birth, life, and death of Jesus brought me to a place of understanding and experience of Christ in his humanness.  What an unexpected and amazing design!   I felt an understanding of his connection with me in a fuller deeper way, in both his humanity and in his divinity. Watching his interaction with the Father and the Spirit also transformed my understanding and connection with the other two persons of the Trinity.  
An essential part of that process was the large group and small group experiences. Listening to my other group members, I found a richness of experience and a deeper understanding of each passage of Scripture we were working with.  Alongside of that were the probing questions of our spiritual director and other group members that drew us together, closer to one another and closer to God.
The whole thing was nothing I had expected.  It really is difficult to put it into words, the effect that it has had on me. I was truly deeply transformed.  I would recommend it to anyone.